He announced the team to fifa 15 coins play against Tunisia: just read the players off a
list written down on a piece of paper. I suppose I must have known, deep down,
that it was going to happen. Things hadn’t been right for a couple of days. Even
so, when my name wasn’t in the eleven, it felt like somebody had hit me in the
stomach. I thought I was going to be sick. I even hoped for a split second that
I’d just not heard Glenn saying ‘Beckham’. I looked across at Gary Neville. He
was looking back at me. Was he surprised, too? Or just watching to see how I
might react? Of course it was a blow to my pride and that would always be
something you have to be mature enough to overcome. What really knocked me
sideways, though, was not having any real understanding of why the manager had
made his decision.
I’ve always tried to have a professional attitude to training. I love it
almost as much as I love playing. That morning, though, was a complete waste of
time. I felt so low. I was so angry I couldn’t force myself to work properly.
Glenn must have been able to see that I wasn’t coping with what I’d been told. I
suppose I should have known what would happen next: as soon as we finished the
session, he announced who would be taking questions from the press that
afternoon. That list, of course, included my name. It was horrible. I’ve never
been that good at hiding my emotions. If I’m unhappy or down, people just know.
I did that press conference and didn’t say anything out of turn, but it must
have been pretty obvious something wasn’t right. A couple of the other players
got calls straight afterwards from journalists who were helping them do World
Cup diaries for the papers. ‘What’s wrong with David?’ they were asking. ‘Has he
been left out of the team?’
Lots of managers play mind games cheap fifa 15 coins with the press and with opposing teams.
Here, it seemed to me the England manager was playing mind games with one of his
own players. That’s what upset me the most. I didn’t realize it there and then,
but I wasn’t going to enjoy France 98 from that press conference onwards. I
didn’t know which way to turn. I couldn’t even decide who to speak to for
support or advice. I called Victoria first. She was shocked and I think,
instinctively, she would have told me to leave and come to America straight
away, where the Spice Girls were on tour. She didn’t say that, which is probably
just as well; I felt so low I might almost have been tempted. Then I talked to
Dad. He couldn’t believe it, either, and at least reassured me that I wasn’t
over-reacting. He told me it was understandable that I was so upset.
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